my mom ends work at 945pm usually.

i'm at home most of the time.

dad will sleep first and then wake up at 930pm to get ready.

dad is tired (early sleeper).

but still, i do not volunteer to pick her up.

here's the irony:

i lament that i do not have enough experience,

but yet i'm not willing to drive more (because i'm really scared due to the lack of experience).

circularity of argument.

today.

my mom had to go to the shop at 830.

she needed to run some errands before the shop closed.

dad slept already.

no choice but to send her down.

snail speed. (this reminds me of that time when i picked my sis up from taka, after having not driven for the longest time. when i got to her she asked me, "why you so slow.")

today.

had to pick mom up at 930.

stark differences in 830 and 930 driving.

830 - slow

930 - rather fast.

i always have this thought that the police will come and catch me (cos i have to drive past this police post DOWN THE ROAD) and i really mean down the road, even if i don't step on accelerator the car will accelerate to 60km/hr.

this is where i'm very scared of myself.

i think i might be overly confident when it comes to driving sometimes.

i am confident (which is very important when driving) but the thing is deep down i know that i can't handle if things so wrong.

my judgement is still pretty bad and i can't fight with cab drivers.

(i think if you can "fight" with them you're quite a pro alr)

my mom's fault (AGAIN HAHA)

when i was super enthu in driving (the first year) she totally forbade me to drive unless it's with my parents, or i could only drive alone if i was going to pick her up (short dist.)

soon i got really bored at this routine, so i stopped.

and when i volunteered to drive and park at taka since we were gonna buy a lot of stuff

she'll say things like "huh i very scared you dunno how to park/cannot find parking. better not la we'll just call dad to pick us up when we're done."

how to learn like that?

my enthusiasm and passion for driving went down along with time.