i dunno why but i started watching the korean version of hana yori dango (commonly known as 流星花園, or the F4 show.) the cast not bad leh! gu jun pyo is really not bad looking!

just today i chionged 6 hours of it non stop.
shows of this genre tend to make girls wanna fall in love all over again.
which got me thinking (yet again),
until now there's still only one person whom i'll cry so bitterly for IF he gets admitted to the hospital for some reason.
and until now there's only one person that i'll wanna spend my last 5mins with should there be a war or some end of the world thingy impending.
and you all should know who right, just too repetitive.

i'm not saying that i wanna marry this person and grow old with him.
(what a huge flip from last time)
the terms "relationship", "marriage" and "commitment" are giving me the shivers these days.
and it's because -
i'm getting too comfortable (and too happy) with singlehood.
singlehood without flings.

S is not considered a fling okay.
actually he's made me realise that it's very hard for someone to share the life i have, to even keep up with me, my pace and the way i enjoy stuff (food, in particular).

anyhows. i love my life the way it is now.
and you may not know,
but i really love spending time alone.
i enjoy the company of friends (esp if it's a big group),
but alone time is still the best.

actually,
i hate talking.
but i feel that if i'm out i should at least make the atmosphere lighter or something (hence the big group, more time to rest. going out with people one on one is a total mind drainer for me.)

in kenneth's words, "talking is very draining."